Our attachment to concepts can be so damaging. When we allow our ego to identify with an idea we form an unconscious attachment that can wreak havoc in our lives!
To have immersed oneself in a spiritual way of life, and devoured literature and teachings in support of this, we come to place whereby we have an excellent intellectual grasp on the philosophy of spirituality. We are competent in our understanding of God Theory, but our experience of God is somewhat lacking.
Just because we comprehend the idea of mindfulness, for example, we are not necessarily experiencing it as a living reality. We might dis-cover the resonant concept and accept it as personal truth. So we believe that we have integrated it into our being and thus we feel we are living it. Perhaps we have moments of presence that fuel us in a belief that we have attained some level of higher consciousness. We might even appear as though we are enlightened, as we present to the world with a Buddha-like detachment that gives the impression we have risen above the trials tribulations dramas of samsara.
There may exist within us some judgement upon others as we assess their level of consciousness. We may be unconsciously hypocritical in our lack of self-awareness.
When we examine ourselves closely, and cast the Virgoan critical eye over our deep Self, we see that there is something missing. Despite all our knowledge of spirituality, our sincere belief in virtuous ideals, our genuine intention to act out of love for our fellow wo~man, our best efforts at spiritual practice, we have somehow missed the point.
We have understood a concept intellectually and attached to it emotionally, but we have not integrated it.
We have not consciously detached, we have disconnected.
And this unconscious disconnection is a kind of escape strategy. We have switched off from our feelings in a genuine effort to move to a place of compassion forgiveness love.
We deny our hurt pain anger.
But just because we deny it does not mean it is not there.
The only way to transform these feelings is to work with them.
And so we must feel our pain.
It is from this place of sincere surrender that true transformation occurs, and we can reconnect with God from an authentic and humble foundation.
Accept the anger. Employ Buddhist methods of embracing that anger if you wish (greeting anger as if it is an old faithful friend and allowing it the space to be). Apply the belief that anger is a sign that action must be taken, but exercise the restraint shown by a true warrior, and do not act out of that anger.
We can be conscious in our anger, but first we must be conscious of our anger.
When we accept that the anger exists, we are ready to explore where it has come from. The source of the emotion may be obvious, or it may be well hidden, and likely a bit of both. The wounds we carry are deep and complex. We make efforts to illuminate these dark aspects of psyche and we are freed from the Self-limiting place of denial and escapist tendencies. The deeper we delve, the more we find, and as we work through it we unearth our own personal power.
Discerning where the pain has come from is not intended to find a person with whom to lay blame. But an honest reflection of the event and all it entailed facilitiates the transformation of hurt and anger into compassion and peace. We look at what has happened from the point of view that it has occurred in aid of our own personal evolution. We are responsible for the metamorphosis of some hurtful incident into higher consciousness.
Again, this has the potential to become yet another concept to which we may attach. We may find ourselves looking upon others as they struggle with victimhood, pain and suffering and feeling superior. Be reminded that each journey is personal and one cannot know another’s experience of life.