unknowable invisible

My last published post, following the Pisces Full Moon, saw me attempting to honour something I didn’t really understand… I have been trying to remain open to the messages that emerge from my recent trip to my own inner swamplands… while too aiming for reverence, knowing that some things are shrouded in mystery for a reason and they will be illuminated for our conscious mind in due course, or not.

The things I share here come from my own experience and I am aware that they may not make sense for everyone, (or anyone!) but I must simply be true to myself and the part of me through which these insights come.

So in line with my own personal journey, I have deepened my understanding of that which was completely unknown to me a few short months ago, except perhaps in an abstract sense…

A day or two ahead of last month’s Aries Full Moon I had allowed myself to become so depleted that I found myself in hospital, first in the emergency department and then in intensive care (ICU), followed by a couple of days on the medical ward. At four months pregnant I had been caring for two young kids and keeping our house functional while my partner worked hard at his job six long days each week. After being hit by numerous bugs over the winter months, my immune system was shot; I had reached my limit and my body signalled as much with a heart rate over 150 and severe shortness of breath.

My few days in hospital I was visited by 13 doctors. Most of them had little to no capacity to hear, but there were some exceptions. I believed that I had simply run myself down to the point of exhaustion, and that my symptoms would subside given adequate time and rest, but the biomedical concern was that I had a pulmonary embolism (a blood clot in my lung) and they had to run many tests to exclude this. In the meantime, I was afforded respite from my normal life and so able to recover my breath while my heart rate settled to the upper reaches of normal. Once I had undergone the required diagnostics, with no detectable clots, I was allowed to go home.

By the time of my discharge I knew that I had been provided with an opportunity, and that to force a return to my former way of living was a fast-track to readmission. I was being called to make changes: I needed help. For me, admittance of this is no mean feat; while I appear to be easygoing I am in fact quite determined to “cope” no matter what (I have Capricorn on my IC, Saturn in my 12th and an Aquarian South Node), and relinquishment of my stubborn control-freakery is quite challenging. My family rallied to my aid and took turns running my household while I remained bed-bound for a couple of weeks.

Now that I have recovered significantly, the support of loved ones has become less pressing, but it is still evident that my inadvertent overdoing it (by walking the short distance to a neighbourhood friend’s place on an irresistibly sunny day) results in the proverbial two steps back. So I must remain vigilant, and for at least so long as Mars dwells in my 12th house (until the end of November) my official position is surrender. It is not easy, for me or those who come to help, as I am no longer confined to my bed and so instead I repeatedly interfere with their best efforts at bolstering my convalescence.

I am trying to use this time of diminished capacity to consciously surrender, to rest, and also to bring to light the messages that seem to be emerging from within. I have improved at being able to accept help (though still not as graciously as I would like), and at asking others to do things for me (with less passive aggression), and also letting go of the guilt at being unable to contribute in ways that I would normally, but there is a long (long long) way to go. I pray for mercy. And that my blessedly enhanced awareness will allow me to be alert to opportunities to delegate appropriately forevermore.

Were it not for my consciously seeking ways to trust my unconscious (following the advice offered by a prophetic hobo in a dream I had earlier this year) I might have not been able to see the many gifts of this unfolding situation. As I was becoming increasingly aware of the value of surrender in the weeks and months before my hospital admission, I was very open to continuing on this path once I was really unwell. It is this state of being open that has allowed me to grow from this experience in ways that are so significant to me.

It has also provided me with a first-hand experience of (admittedly brief and relatively mild) illness to draw upon for reflection. Our culture has developed a pathological tendency to dismiss and reject sickness, and in so doing throws out bathwater and baby alike. The understandable desire for a return to wellness has led to the oversimplification and demonisation of the deeply complex and meaningful process implicit in being unwell.

Truly there are many gifts available to us when we are forced against our will (like Persephone) into the underworld of illness, though these are often obscured by pain, suffering, lethargy, depression as well as the conditioned expectation that we ought to recover and return to “normal” as quickly as possible. Unwellness is an experience that we all encounter at various times in our lives to varying degrees of severity and timespans. In stark contrast to the conscious life that we cultivate in the outside material world, sickness beckons us into a deep dark place within to dwell for a time

inert

but alert

to the emergence of truths

we cannot know unless

we are willing to

resign to the requirements

of our own particular ills

I don’t pretend to know what a successful navigation of one’s illness should look like; I think that must be personal and different for us all. But I suspect that, as in myth and fairy tale, the gods don’t expect us to suffer in vain ~ there must be meaning to be found in there somewhere, amid the ghosts ghouls and monsters that haunt us from our own shadowy depths.

Gemini New Moon 2017

Early Friday morning (3.46am AWST 26th May 2017) heralds the New Moon in Gemini and our benevolent cosmos provides yet more opportunities for expanding our human potential…

And opening our minds

While Gemini says “I think” and seeks to gather information, we are wise to recognise that limitations are inherent in the dualistic modus operandi we currently collectively subscribe to. Perhaps this New Moon delivers a message of divine import ~ are we being called to realise our potential for a more integrated world view?

As we recognise that truth is not an either/or situation

but a both/and invitation to access all-encompassing whole truth.

This week there is an impasse, the dual nature of our either/or thinking leaves us without an out. We are bound between two incompatible realities, gagged by irreconcilable differences, and co-existence seems impossible. We feel hopeless, helpless. How can we escape this world of pain wherein nothing and no one seems willing or able to shift…?

The answer comes via objectivity, allowing enough space for the tension of the opposites to be as they are, releasing frustration and attachment, being open to the emergence of a mysterious reconciliatory creative relationship between the forces at play. Rather than to-ing and fro-ing evermore and finding ourselves disappointed compromised unfulfilled we might instead make room for a third force

Armenian mystic G.I. Gurdjieff describes the Law of Three ~ affirming denying reconciling ~ of which the inspiring Reverend Dr Cynthia Bourgeault writes “no resistance, no new arising

Or perhaps the necessity of opposition in evolution.

One way to access such a spacious place of grace is by becoming humble enough to question our own tendencies and patterns. Is it our own incapacity for flexibility and openness that prohibits our forward motion? Do our own limiting answers sabotage our journey on the path to what’s possible? Are we inadvertently repeating ourselves because we are not accepting authority for our lives?

Truly our potential is beyond our wildest imaginings

“But nothing can be attained in sleep” said G.I. Gurdjieff

While we do appear to be awake, fully-functioning autonomous grown-ups tending to our roles and responsibilities in the straight world, the truth is that until we awaken we are very much at the mercy of our unconscious inertia (even, or perhaps especially, when we behave and look as though we are actively doggedly pursuing “success”). Once we have one of those so-called peak experiences (often a brush with mortality, loss or trauma) and find ourselves suddenly irreparably conscious, life begins to unfold in miraculous ways that prompt us towards individuation, and life as we know it will never be the same again.

Gemini is associated with The Fool archetype, who signifies a kind of blind faith, optimism and willingness to set forth on a journey despite there being so many unanswered questions…

With Mercury now in Taurus we are reminded of the value of patience, to trust that life will present us with all that we need. Maintaining a stubborn belief that we already have all the answers does not foster the emergence of imagination. A little honest self-appraisal and reflective humility quickly reveals the illusory nature of such delusions of grandeur. Sometimes Spartan stillness is the only way to be granted access to the unapparent and uncomfortable avenue of answers.

The questions around our human existence demand that we find new solutions. To paraphrase Albert Einstein, a problem cannot be solved by the same consciousness that created it… thus we cannot hope to elucidate a path forward, personally or collectively, without expanding our consciousness, opening our minds, surrendering to our not-knowingness and inviting space/grace that allows possibilities to emerge ~ solutions.

Gemini is mutable and curious, so at this New Moon, let the information flow freely direct from the source, let the vulnerability of our imperfections give rise to acceptance compassion forgiveness, let us deepen our comprehension of that which we value, and let us open our whole selves to new possibilities.

Who knows what lies ahead in this mad world?!

Scorpio Full Moon 2017

May’s Full Moon in Scorpio (11th May 3.45am AWST) invites us to become more recognisant of death as an imperative transformational phase in the cycle of life ~ though we shy away from its implications (apparent finality, pain, loss, sorrow) there might be more to it than meets the eye

Scorpio and its modern ruler Pluto are often associated with death, not limited to physical death but the many endings+losses we experience as part of life ~ often resisted and struggled against as we fight to retain or regain control…

We can become so caught up in being “right” and in winning battles that we identify as being necessary and righteous, but truly nothing is gained from victories of this kind. It never feels good to “win” by force. And when it comes down to what really matters, does it really matter?

The traditional ruler of Scorpio is Mars ~ an inwardly expressed Mars (via the yin sign of Scorpio) is a force to be reckoned with, and wholly dependent upon our own willingness to work with energy transformation…

Do we choose fear (anger rage resentment frustration aggression)

or courage (assertiveness will confidence independence right action)?

How easy it is to condemn others, to wash our hands of any culpability for the problems we encounter, to point and shake our heads at those people;  that hysterical woman, aloof man, dysfunctional neighbours…

Evil-doers abound, and thus so do chances for us to shirk our responsibilities and scapegoat perpetually…

For as long as we insist upon foisting our own shadows on others, we remain at the mercy of our unconscious power. Blaming instantly transports us to victimhood, a place that renders us impotent+lame frustrated+struggling. But as we confront the uncomfortable truth ~ this mess is our own ~ we recognise that all our experiences contain potential for transformation ~ alchemy ~ lead > gold

We might turn unpleasant experience into something for which we can be truly grateful. We might honour loss with life lived more wholeheartedly

Becoming the butterfly

This change occurs within the space that is grace, and we access it from a point of reverence humility faith

This week, when our defences may be up, our wit is sharp and our tongues are sharper, we do well to look within for ways to resolve our problems. No matter how clever our arguments might seem, or how justified we feel in our rigidity, Scorpio knows that the truth sets us free

and the truth is that we are all made of pure love

and when we let it flow through us, miracles occur. Nothing less.

Libra Full Moon 2017

Another Full Moon is upon us, and the astroscape is intense! King of excess Jupiter (even in reverse-mode!) is keeping the spark alive between Change Gods Pluto and Uranus. Thankfully, retrograde Mercury, Saturn and Venus offer room for reflection ~ let’s hope the (ostensible) powers-that-be will allow themselves this luxury! Amidst these turbulent times, we too find solace in the inner space afforded by various retrogrades and waning cycles…

The Libra Full Moon, exact on Tuesday afternoon (2.08pm AWST) illuminates insights revealed by (Full Moon ruler) Venus’ magical retrograde. We are uncovering true worth, in ourselves, in others, in life and all she provides.

Venus’ new guise as the morning star represents awakening ~ as the truth dawns on us in all its beauty ~ we are reminded that our own self-worth is not dependent upon the approval of others…

I don’t need everybody to like me! I must remain true to my inner muse and honour my own truth by walking my talk, no matter what they say. Let me not be distracted by tall poppy ponderings…

“will they think I’m crazy?”

“who do I think I am?!”

 

On that note, forgive me a digression… the dream that came to me the night after my first astrology workshop (JupiterReturn-inspired conscious act of individuation) ~ I sit in a dark room beside an old lady who describes herself as the daughter of Carl Jung. She shows me her jewels ~ a pile of rainbow gems trinkets treasures riches ~ and then she departs, promising to return, leaving me poring over the valuables…

We are being asked now to trust in the Piscean mystery of life ~ to accept it as it is and know that, as we act in alignment with truth, we will be guided

and the jewels (our meaningful reward) will be entrusted to us in turn

The cosmos is now calling us to show up more visibly in our own lives. The light of this Moon helps us to see where we sell ourselves short + dumb ourselves down and empowers us to liberate ourselves! Authenticity is key to our sense of self-worth and to our ability to live wholeheartedly. Mars supports us in acting courageously and intentionally.

As Venus turns direct later this week we are also blessed with opportunities to let go of our concepts ideals attachments illusions delusions around love

For as long as we remain stuck in a view of what love should be we cannot know love. But the moment we surrender to the moment, in all its glorious imperfection, and accept our chosen mate in all his/her humanness, we find their true worth

and love appears.

Not only that, but a chance exists now to release ourselves from the self-imposed limitations of expectation

The true worth of things (situations events people) cannot emerge until we relinquish the clouded perspective of what we want them to be, which requires that they be different to how they actually are in reality…

Venus’ current fusion with Chiron helps us to find the value in our vulnerabilities. These “cracks where the light gets in” are indeed our gateway to humility and compassion, and so to genuine connection and intimacy.

Here we find Libra ~ relating to others & relating to life ~ we evolve through the contributions made by others and through our capacity to connect with these contributions meaningfully.

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Virgo Full Moon 2017

Sunday night’s (12th March, 10.55pm AWST) Full Moon in Virgo is a special one! Amid all the challenging energy playing out between Pluto, Uranus, Jupiter, Saturn and the Sun and Moon, Mercury and Chiron invite us to go beyond our assumed limitations…

As the Moon’s energy builds, and we perhaps become more aware of our woundedness, there is the potential for us to default to old ways of thinking and being. We find ourselves in crisis, inwardly lamenting our flaws, vulnerabilities, perceived weaknesses, and believing that we are destined to succumb to our past…

Loss and trauma must be processed authentically ~ felt, honoured, experienced, mourned ~  over time and sometimes periodically. As we evolve and mature, we might reflect on our wounds from different points of view and benefit from new insights, deepening our healing. No one has the right to tell another how to grieve, or that we ought to “get over it” “move on” “toughen up” “lighten up” et al, we must each honour the process of grief in ways that feel personally meaningful.

While Chiron can represent parts of our psyche that defy logical comprehension, and wounds that remain despite our best efforts to “cure” them, we need not feel these aspects of ourselves are necessarily limiting. Mercury is supporting us to transcend the idea that we are bound to old trauma. We are not asked to forget, but to let go of our attachment to who we have been.

Wounds sustained over lifetimes might remain with our soul, colouring our perceptions, causing us to respond in certain ways to certain stimuli, much of which occurs unconsciously ~ we are unaware of our bias. This Full Moon allows us to see more clearly the ways in which this effects us, and encourages us to accept ourselves, warts and all, without allowing ourselves to remain stuck in old thought forms.

We are not who we were. Our old wounds can contribute meaningfully to our individuation, but when we allow our conscious minds to replay our old stories ad infinitum, we are doomed to abide by an old paradigm of thought that keeps us reliving the past.

Though our ego perceives the shedding/letting go of these stories as a sacrifice ~ a threat to its identification ~ it is time to transcend all that! Recognise that denial, rejection, numbing or projection are simply the ego’s attempts to maintain status quo, seeking control and power ~ illusory though these are.

This weekend the cosmos empowers us to release the old, see things anew, welcome the insights that come…

feel the tenderness within (ouch!) and courageously stay with it.

Sagrada Familia ~ emerging from the Barcelona earth

We might even channel our feelings

 into conscious expression of our individuation

~ more fully ourselves

than we have ever been before

Pisces New Moon Eclipse

Tonight’s (26th February 11pm (AWST)) Pisces New Moon eclipse is both

a time to honour from whence we have come

and to look forward, to that which we are now becoming

Pisces ~ symbolised by two fishes swimming in opposite directions ~ shows how we each may contribute to the whole, each of us a point of consciousness that, in order to make our meaningful contribution, must discover and express our unique individuality…

To be or not to be?

Once we are immersed in the modern-day collective conundrum, are we destined to become lost? Or, is it possible to contribute to the whole but too remain true to our selves?

These questions have plagued me this past fortnight, as I’ve made my return to nursing, now my entire life is accounted for… work, family, children, partner, puppy, domestic duties… and there’s nought left for “me”. Its not as if this was unexpected: I knew that my return to paid employment would demand much and that my less-productive pursuits (astrology, meditation, yoga, sleep) would suffer, and too that this is The Norm ~ status quo for the vast majority of us.

No time to nourish that seed of creative individuality, no time to go within, no time to practice music, no time to rest, no time to daydream, no time to read, no time to blog. Such a sad state of affairs this is.

Or is it?

Sacrifice is to make sacred. In attempting to shift my perspective from one of mourning and self-pity to one of learning and service I “ask not what my employer can do for me, but what I can do for my employer patients colleagues children partner puppy insert various other beneficiaries”… and to embrace this lot as an opportunity to evolve. To find the positives in what could otherwise be experienced as a depleting defeating depressing interminable situation.

“When ego comes, wisdom leaves” Prem Rawat

Rather than wallowing in misery, we might recognise the value freedom release in surrendering to how things really are.

In the acceptance of what is, we do our best with each moment, and we benefit as we shift our perspective from dogged pursuit of what I want, to the flow of what I can do to help others, and life feels better. And within such good-vibe generosity there are seeds sown for a beautiful future.

As the New Moon eclipse promises a fresh beginning, it is flavoured by endings, so we give consideration to the cyclic nature of it all, and how this particular new start looks back as well as forward, in as well as out, and recognises how we can give and receive…

Perhaps the gifts offered are not what we expect, but all the more valuable for the effort required to discover the hidden rewards. As we learn to find the goodness inherent in everything (transformation of lead to gold), we ensure that our suffering is not meaningless, and I think perhaps this is the most wonderful gift of all.

Gemini Full Moon

Wednesday the 14th of December (8.07am AWST) delivers the final Full Moon of 2016 at 22° Gemini~Sagittarius. Life is rich with meaning with a healthy Sagittarius expression, and healthy Gemini supports this with highly developed skills of perception and data collection.

Gemini represents the dual nature of things ~ black & white dark & light bad & good ~ upon closer inspection, as we learn grow evolve, we find that the lines separating us n them blur. We start to discover that things are not always clearly black and white, but more often grey. But it is helpful at times to discriminate between the polarities and it would be foolish and naive to insist that there is no such thing as right and wrong, right? Although if we consider it for long enough… 😉

Gemini says “I think”

The human mind is active by nature, always seeking something to do, paradoxically easily distracted with a tendency to become fixated upon thought patterns that are not necessarily healthy. This is why Buddhists encourage the use of techniques to cultivate mindfulness. When left to its own devices the mind will wander, aimlessly and seemingly harmlessly, free associating its way through days weeks years, allowing for the reinforcement of unhelpful neurocircuits and thus karma

Learning to harness the power of the mind is so beneficial because

with our thoughts we make the world

Life is largely experienced between our ears ~ a matter of perception above all else. Becoming aware of the subject of our incessant rumination concentration deliberation speculation cogitation contemplation meditation is worthwhile. The energy focussed hereupon will manifest, though not necessarily in the ways we expect or desire.

Energy flows where attention goes

Chiron’s influence upon this lunation is meaningful too ~ consider how we allow our tales of woe and wounding to inhibit our evolvement. The stories we repeat ad nauseam aloud or on a silent loop as we go about our business… how we’ve been wronged and by whom… the things we wish we’d said/would say if we had the chance/courage… imaginary encounters confrontations meet cutes… it goes on

and on.

So yes, we’re wounded, one and all. Learning to accept ourselves in all of our imperfection liberates us from the tyrannical illusion of faultlessness. Truly it is our flaws that keep us real, and grounded, and connected to one another, and grateful. In humility we are always learning, finding compassion and forgiveness as we recognise our own hidden shadows in the perceived shortcomings of others.

As Mercury slows down in preparation for a retrograde trip all the way back to late Sagi, we can allow the brightness of this Mercury-ruled Full Moon to shed light on those well worn cerebral pathways and begin to discern how these help and hinder our forward motion. Are we giving our power away by lingering too long on old thought forms? Are we living our truth and aligned with our vision? On track to a future that excites and energises us?

With practice we will undoubtedly improve, so we do well to examine our thought practices ~ habits tendencies patterns routines ~ since our best indicator of our future is our present… does it feel like a gift?

“Wise enough to carry the scars without any blame there’s no one to blame its easy to forget what you’ve learned waiting for the thrill to return feeling your desire burn and drawn to the flame… I don’t pretend to know what you want but i offer love”

Neil Finn

Pisces Full Moon

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Jellyfish washed up on Smiths Beach

The Full Moon Eclipse in Pisces conjunct Chiron occurs on Saturday the 17th of September at 3.06am (AWST). Pisces ~ the Fishes ~ submerged beneath the waves of a sea of consciousness~god~source ~spirit~anima mundi or, as Jung put it, the collective unconscious ~ that which eludes our rationalist scientific modern-world perception. A potentially healing Full Moon, adorned with opportunity and fraught with dangers ranging from penetrating clarity and fearless moments of awakening and release to violent rage and damaging loss of self.

Neptune is the planetary ruler of this Full Moon, and too in the sign of Pisces. Within us all exists the Pisces~Neptune archetype, and so there is a part of each one of us that yearns to return to Source, to become One With All That Is, to escape the limiting concrete reality in all its Saturnian rigidity, connecting to something bigger than ourselves. So often, in this secular society, we find our Oneness in escapism. To dull the separation anxiety suffered as a result of our disconnection from spirit, we anaesthetise ourselves with various substances, distractions and indulgences.

Neptune is a prominent energy throughout 2016, and this Full Moon Eclipse highlights the pertinent manifestations for our consideration and integration. Importantly, Neptune is conjunct the Lunar South Node in Pisces, lending an ethereal vibe to our retrospective view of the past. As we look back we might be tempted to don rose-tinted glasses, perceiving times gone by as something they were not. Fundamentally, with the South Node we consider the low-road options in depth as they represent our unconscious~default tendencies. With Neptune, we know these are slippery and tempting, as they offer escape from the pain of our reality, but at such great cost.

Cue the eternal realist Saturn (square Neptune and the Lunar Nodes) persistently pushing us to see things clearly. To look back with less nostalgia and more equanimity, less delusion and more compassion, less blame and more forgiveness ~ allows us to go forward with more purpose, clarity, courage, power, maturity, wisdom, strength…

Chiron, the Wounded Healer, and his presence in (conjunction with the Full Moon in) Pisces invites us to heal our spiritual wounds. This process is painful. The challenges are many. The more we uncover, the more there is to uncover. But far from it being licence to moan, resigned to our lot in life, it is this work that will lead us to our healing, our truth, our bright future, and our own personal god experience.

Chiron’s movement through the zodiac explicates our best medicine for the moment, lest we become embroiled in our own tragedy. Pisces medicine unequivocally equates to spirituality. In true homeopathic style, the source of our pain contains the remedy to our ills. Our collective road to healing is one that leads us closer to the divine dance, wherein we are simultaneously honoured + honouring ~ creation + creator. Our source of spiritual nourishment needn’t be religious in nature, but certainly requires us to find the sacred in life, and humility enough to show reverence for it.

At the apex of a T-square between the Sun~Mercury in Virgo and the Moon~Chiron in Pisces is Mars in Sagittarius. Having moved on from the post-retrograde conjunction with Saturn ~ courage of our convictions ~ Mars now picks up the pace heading for Capricorn. First though, his augmentation of this Eclipse adds an aggressive dimension to this somewhat yin~centripetal lunation. Its a juggle! As we inwardly try to manage the strong mutable energies we feel confused, perplexed, bewildered. With Mars in such a position of power, we can shoot off at the mouth ~ shoot from the hip as our anxiety gets the better of us. Rather, defuse Martial agitation with benign physicality ~ adventure ~ new horizons ~ fresh perspective in the fresh air ~ nature

Adding further unpredictability to the mix is Uranus+Eris in Aries trine Mars. Eris is the “newest” trans-Neptunian dwarf planet, named after the goddess of discord. Displeased at having been excluded from an Olympic wedding, shit-stirrer Eris cast an apple scribed with “to the fairest” at the feet of three chatting party guests ~ Pallas Athene, Aphrodite and Hera ~ invoking discord as each goddess naturally believed herself to be the fairest. Zeus delegated the responsibility of settling the quarrel to Prince Paris of Troy, who eventually (having secured the rights to Helen the most beautiful woman in the world) chose the corrupt Aphrodite.

The addition of Uranus and Eris to Mars’ already belligerent influence leads one to believe we might expect a certain amount of unpredictable discord in our lives presently. But Eris’ influence is one that, despite her reputation, belies some benefits when we do it right. While she is renowned for revelling in the suffering of others she aint all bad. And as always, we cannot merely reject these troublesome parts of ourselves, we must work to find a way to consciously express them. Discord isn’t always unwarranted. And competition isn’t inherently bad. At its best it inspires greatness, diversity and creativity.

So, at the culmination of this eclipse season, may we each find our high-road leading us to a future that nurtures our soul’s evolutionary intent. Keep the faith, if we build it, well you know 🙂 Once more, I borrow from Michael Leunig…

“God bless the lost, the confused, the unsure, the bewildered, the puzzled, the mystified, the baffled, and the perplexed. Amen.”

Chiron & the Moon’s South Node

Today, Chiron and the Moon’s South Node go their separate ways. As this poignant link at 21° Pisces comes to an end, we begin to process messages from our past that have emerged into consciousness this month.

The Moon’s Nodal Axis represents our evolving soul’s trajectory through this life. The South Node reflects our past, and may not be limited to our present earthly incarnation. It symbolises our karmic inheritance and describes a set of default patterns that we can easily remain stuck in, unless we cultivate awareness and an attitude that welcomes change.

When we observe the transiting movements of the Lunar Nodal Axis we see that its shifting through the zodiac (it moves in a retrograde, or apparently backwards, motion) brings our awareness to that which most serves our evolution at the time = that which we most need to integrate and learn, both individually and collectively.

Chiron is a planetoid that orbits between Saturn and Uranus. Named after a mythological centaur, Chiron was the much sought-after healer who paradoxically could not heal his own wound. Where we find Chiron in our birth chart represents the gift that lies within our own woundedness. As a transiting influence Chiron prescribes us our medicine for the moment.

Chiron’s link to the Lunar South Node indicates a time of enhanced awareness of our past, and the woundings we have sustained. Events of the last couple of weeks may’ve triggered our pain response, or we may’ve had contact with people from our past, or our thoughts have drifted to times gone by… nostalgic or relieved, we remember.

I believe in the importance of recognising our wounds. We have all suffered in our lives and we have scars to prove it. Acceptance of our pain  is the first step in healing. Instead of denial, suppression and escapism we benefit from feeling our pain. Exploration of events we have perceived as traumatic is imperative and enlightening. As we consciously reflect upon the details of our experience we gain clarity. We understand what has transpired.

BUT, the vital lesson with this profoundly healing union occurring in the sign of Pisces = we must not attach to our woundedness. Where we identify with our pain, and the story of our wounding, we become victims (low-road Pisces) wallowing in self-pity, we give away our power. We must acknowledge our innate wounding without allowing it to limit us.

With love, we can make space for healing: a dynamic process that flows through us ~ transforming our consciousness and our lives as we

accept forgive release

We can learn from our past, and have our wounds inform our present selves. But where we allow ourselves to be bound to our past, we are destined to replay our histories. Defaulting to the well-worn path (karma) of our South Node. We compose the “story of me” and reinforce our neurocircuitry as we tell it again and again and again.

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The truth is

we are all wounded.

And Pisces wants to teach us

compassion.

Virgo Full Moon

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The annual Full Moon in Virgo occurs on Tuesday 23rd February at 2.21am local time (AWST). Virgo represents humility, service and sacrifice, health and healing

Mercury ruled, Virgo is a mind-oriented earth sign, but differs to the Yang energy of its airy counterpart Gemini. Virgo is discerning and allows for the intake of information in a way that discriminates, sorting the wheat from the chaff. We are supported now in being able to see what is truly required as we venture forth towards a bright future.

The Virgo~Pisces axis is where we find the Moon’s Nodes until May 2017. This is a time to consciously move away from low-road Piscean vibes: escapism, delusions, victim mentality. This Virgo Full Moon is a reminder to us all to serve in alignment with the highest good. We are all connected and when we act from a place of integrity we nourish ourSelves, our others, as well as our connection to Source~God. The word sacrifice comes from the Latin, to make sacred. When we can view service as an opportunity and a privilege we rise to the realm of high-road Virgo.

Jupiter is also in Virgo and remains in conjunction with the Moon’s North Node, buoying our genuine efforts toward expansion, growth and evolution. Jupiter blesses us with faith and optimism, but low-road manifestations (over-confidence and tendency to overindulgence, for example) can lead us off track. Here we can learn from Virgo: honest Self-appraisal can strengthen us. But guard against excessive criticism of Self and others. Be kind.

Directly opposite is Chiron, almost exactly conjunct the South Node in Pisces. A time for healing old hurts is imminent. Chiron is the wounded healer and a great cosmic teacher. The fusion of these symbols facilitates the transformation of our traumas. Baby steps. Acknowledgement of our pain is the beginning. From here there is much work to do. If we wallow in our woundedness believing ourselves to be victims; if we anaesthetise the pain rather than transforming it, we fall prey to low-road Pisces.

As the Virgo Full Moon ruler, Mercury (messenger of the Gods) blesses us with incoming information, further supporting our evolutionary efforts. Aquarius is where we’ll find Mercury now and this sign links us to both past and future. Remain open, of mind and heart.

Mars too is involved, via a square to both the Sun and the Moon. Mars’ continuing journey through Scorpio is enabling the unearthing of our dark matter. As Mars agitates the luminaries there is more fuel thrown on the fire, so conflict and over-reactions are possible. Remember to breathe.

The illuminating nature of the Full Moon, and this lunation’s relationship involving Chiron~South Node indicate that wounds we’ve sustained in our past are triggered at this time. Feelings and emotions resurface. Our health might lag (our body links the divine to our experience in an effort to bring attention to issues we are avoiding). Events themselves may catalyse a thought process or some insight into old pain. Whatever, this is a powerful Moon that precedes the March eclipse season, and if we are feeling the strain of it as it builds, we do well to apply ourselves to a little inner work.

Note the signs. There are many. Indulge in a little navel-gazing and let your mind wander. Dream. Journal. Make space for new understanding. And, as the magical Moon waxes to her fullest the next few nights remember to take a peek out the window, or better yet, get out and bask in that glow!