Libra Full Moon 2017

Another Full Moon is upon us, and the astroscape is intense! King of excess Jupiter (even in reverse-mode!) is keeping the spark alive between Change Gods Pluto and Uranus. Thankfully, retrograde Mercury, Saturn and Venus offer room for reflection ~ let’s hope the (ostensible) powers-that-be will allow themselves this luxury! Amidst these turbulent times, we too find solace in the inner space afforded by various retrogrades and waning cycles…

The Libra Full Moon, exact on Tuesday afternoon (2.08pm AWST) illuminates insights revealed by (Full Moon ruler) Venus’ magical retrograde. We are uncovering true worth, in ourselves, in others, in life and all she provides.

Venus’ new guise as the morning star represents awakening ~ as the truth dawns on us in all its beauty ~ we are reminded that our own self-worth is not dependent upon the approval of others…

I don’t need everybody to like me! I must remain true to my inner muse and honour my own truth by walking my talk, no matter what they say. Let me not be distracted by tall poppy ponderings…

“will they think I’m crazy?”

“who do I think I am?!”

 

On that note, forgive me a digression… the dream that came to me the night after my first astrology workshop (JupiterReturn-inspired conscious act of individuation) ~ I sit in a dark room beside an old lady who describes herself as the daughter of Carl Jung. She shows me her jewels ~ a pile of rainbow gems trinkets treasures riches ~ and then she departs, promising to return, leaving me poring over the valuables…

We are being asked now to trust in the Piscean mystery of life ~ to accept it as it is and know that, as we act in alignment with truth, we will be guided

and the jewels (our meaningful reward) will be entrusted to us in turn

The cosmos is now calling us to show up more visibly in our own lives. The light of this Moon helps us to see where we sell ourselves short + dumb ourselves down and empowers us to liberate ourselves! Authenticity is key to our sense of self-worth and to our ability to live wholeheartedly. Mars supports us in acting courageously and intentionally.

As Venus turns direct later this week we are also blessed with opportunities to let go of our concepts ideals attachments illusions delusions around love

For as long as we remain stuck in a view of what love should be we cannot know love. But the moment we surrender to the moment, in all its glorious imperfection, and accept our chosen mate in all his/her humanness, we find their true worth

and love appears.

Not only that, but a chance exists now to release ourselves from the self-imposed limitations of expectation

The true worth of things (situations events people) cannot emerge until we relinquish the clouded perspective of what we want them to be, which requires that they be different to how they actually are in reality…

Venus’ current fusion with Chiron helps us to find the value in our vulnerabilities. These “cracks where the light gets in” are indeed our gateway to humility and compassion, and so to genuine connection and intimacy.

Here we find Libra ~ relating to others & relating to life ~ we evolve through the contributions made by others and through our capacity to connect with these contributions meaningfully.

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Black Moon Lilith

The dark feminine is one very punished~banished archetypal figure in our human psyche, often relegated to the shadow because we have forgotten how to handle our strong female energy. Even in these liberated contemporary times, she continues to be shunned, condemned, reviled, blamed, rejected, neglected, vilified, renounced, demonised and hated: the Witch Hunt continues.

We owe much to the feminist movement, but it seems perhaps the quest to be deemed mens’ equals was misguided? Now it seems women have fought successfully for the right to do everything men can, so now we have little choice. We have accepted that we must meet the needs of the patriarchy ~ the perfect projection of the Goddess upon our mere mortality ~ now we must work, home-make, child-rear, and in the words of Usher: be a lady in the street and a freak in the bed, and still be underpaid!

Our primeval roles ~ mother nurturer healer wild woman magus mystic witch whore ~ suffered at the hands of the patriarchy so that womens’ natural abilities became worthless, in a world that prizes achievement aggression action ambition advancement above all else. Many thousands of women who refused to renounce their gifts and artistry paid a hefty price ~ burning at the stake a welcome relief after suffering through much cruelty.

With this uprising of the Church and the denial of Pagan nature worship women became viewed as either evil demonesses or weak/meek victims: mere burdens men must bear in order to prolong lineage. We were (are) none of these, but rather the courageous and strong receptacles of ancient Goddess knowledge. A wisdom so deep dark mysterious and inconstant that the masculine cannot contain it by force, or define it with reason, or control it, thus we fear it.

For a long time, I’ve pondered the dark feminine. I have contemplated and meditated, working towards conscious integration of this most powerful energy that resides within me, and each of us, men and women alike. Astrologically, we can look to Black Moon Lilith (a mathematical point, not a celestial body) to help us understand ways in which this energy is expressed (or repressed) in our own psyches.

Black Moon Lilith has completed her nine month journey through Libra, and can be found now (until February 2017) in the sign of Scorpio ~ well matched energies we can surmise, with Scorpio symbolic of the dark Yin Plutonian underworld. My natal Lilith lives in Scorpio too, so as my BML Return looms large on my horizon, I wonder what she has in store for me, and others born between January and October 1981?

Mythologically, Lilith was demonised by the patriarchy for her wilful independence as she, despite heinous blackmail attempts involving perpetual losses of sacrificial progeny, preferred her freedom to cavort with demons and devils on the shores of the Red Sea than to play second fiddle to Adam in Eden. Thus, Adam had a new and satisfactorily subservient bride fashioned from one of his ribs ~ enter the agreeable Eve.

In her refusal to bow before the masculine, and thereby compromise on her principles, Lilith had no choice but to leave, exiled but integrity intact. She is simultaneously sorrowful and fierce: mourning the daily loss of her own children, and her place in Eden as a rightful equal to Adam, she blazed her own lonely trail, belonging to no one. She returned later with a vengeance, disguised as a serpent, convincing Eve to tempt Adam into sinful relations. Rebellious? Perhaps. Defiant? Indeed. Righteous..?

Can we not all do with some Lilith fire in our bellies?

As an archetypal figure she remains largely dissociated from our personal and collective consciousness’. Apart from the angry feminists that have gone to the other end of the spectrum and identified with the disenfranchised feminine so extremely they hurt their cause (not to mention themselves!) in attempts to correct the imbalance between male~female. The rest of us prefer denial, and projection of our inner Lilith upon all those other crazy bitches out there.

Herein lies our mistake: Lilith exists within us all. It is convenient to scapegoat the most difficult women we know and label them mad imbalanced deranged demanding irrational hormonal hysterical et al because it frightens and disgusts us to think that we are capable of the very same behaviours. Men especially struggle to accept the gorgon when she is unleashed, and often react with stoney disengagement that further riles the woman’s shadow.

IMG_0677“Lilith appears in our daily life when we find ourselves in those situations where we are not free to express ourselves, nor valued for our wisdom. Prevented from acting, moving, choosing and determining our life circumstances. We may feel forced to obey others against our own better judgement, and pressured to suppress qualities that others find unacceptable and threatening” (George, 1992, p.188).

Lilith in Scorpio can be a time of reconciling with Lilith, as we recognise our capacity for rage that is vile and extreme. The release of accumulated repressed anger (often expressed in explosive ways) allows us to examine our feelings. An opportunity for integration of this new found self-knowledge presents at such a time, as Lilith tries to free us from pretences. But too often we relent to feelings of humiliation and shame, and retreat to status quo. The violence we have exhibited leaves us remorseful as we have exposed this vulnerability and frightened ourselves with the power we possess. If we are brave, we might be able to face the shadow of Lilith, and hear her message. From here we begin to heal, and invite conscious and creative expression of Lilith power into our lives.

“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” C.G.Jung

 

George, D. (1992) Mysteries of the Dark Moon, Harper Collins, New York City. 

Transformation of what lies beneath

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The unconscious forces within us are powerful. Carl Jung compared our psyches with islands of consciousness in an ocean of unconsciousness. Despite our lack of awareness the parts of our psyche that remain largely hidden yield much control over each of us: our perceptions, behaviours and our manifest realities.

Jung developed the theory of the complex ~ a pattern of memories, beliefs and emotions tied to a common theme ~ we are often unaware of our own personal complexes but they can be obvious to those who know us. For example, the inferiority complex arises commonly in childhood as we become aware of the reality that we are dependent upon others (usually our parents) for life. This can become a negative influence in our psyche if we are discouraged and made to feel inadequate as we grow. Once we are adults our complex becomes aroused unexpectedly and we behave in ways that appear comically irrational: to illustrate, I become defensive and pouty when I feel I’m not being taken seriously. My unconscious transports me to childhood where my feelings of inferiority surface and I react to a lifetime of experiences that have fed into my inferiority complex.

The personal unconscious also consists of Shadow ~ sides of ourselves we don’t want others to see so we deny, reject, suppress, project in an effort to be liked, or more primitively loved, and accepted by the society of which we are a part. As children we are guided by parents, caregivers, peers, and our culture towards a socially acceptable version of who we are. We learn that tantrums are unacceptable and we stuff our rage. We are taught that violence is impermissible by means of an innocuous-household-item-turned-weapon (e.g. the dreaded wooden spoon or belt) and we stuff our physical urges. We receive isolation as punishment for demanding behaviours, and discouragement for expressions of dissatisfaction. We are scowled at and shamed for exploration of our bodies. We stuff all these so-called negative behaviours with a good dose of frustration at the hypocrisy of the grown-up world, and thus the Shadow is born.

These two (as well as other) hidden aspects of the self exist, with or without acknowledgement. For as long as we choose to deny our unconscious, and remain unwilling to engage in an active inner life, the unconscious reveals itself in our outer life. Without self-knowledge we are victims of our own incomprehension, and suffer self-sabotage time and again as we meet our own inner life demons in manifest material world form. We experience our inner life in our outer life. This occurs on both a personal and collective level.

Circumstances work to bring our awareness to that which is unconscious within us. As these unconscious conditions surface we are given an opportunity to learn about ourselves. So, when I feel anger I am given a chance to be conscious. I observe my feeling and notice the sensations and images that accompany it, as well as my thoughts (my ego’s commentary that fuels the fire of righteous indignation!). While I allow this process to unfold I am conscious. The feeling will pass and I will have learned something about myself, and I will’ve harmed none because I’ve not acted. Feelings bring insights, if we allow ourselves to get the message.

Self-knowledge is power. As we become increasingly aware of the fecundity of our unconscious (including our complexes and Shadow) and learn to integrate these aspects of our psyche into our whole self, we simultaneously cease to be manipulated from the inside out. Awareness seeds the potential for transformation.

Monday 18th of April sees power planets Mars and Pluto station retrograde (this simply means that, from our perspective here on Earth, the two planets appear to stand still and then over the coming weeks and months they appear to move backwards ~ an optical illusion similar to cars moving a different speeds on a freeway) and so begins a time of contemplation.

This phase encourages us to surrender our drive to act, in favour of pausing to reflect. I have found that Mars retrograde periods can be quite frustrating, especially when they impact sensitive points in one’s chart. But action taken in haste can lead us into trouble at times like this, so it is worth recalling wise 13th century Sufi poet~mystic~philospher Rumi’s sagacious words…

When I run after what I think I want, my days are a furnace of distress and anxiety;

If I sit in my own place of patience, what I need flows to me, and without any pain.

From this I understand that what I want also wants me, is looking for me and attracting me.

As Mars returns to Scorpio we are invited back into our dark, and for the next four months we are urged to re-examine our motives and discern our true desires. Rather than pushing for results, demanding action, or impulsively acting out of fears and anxiety, we are better suited now to reflect upon the profound question: What do we really want?

Retrograde Pluto (from now until mid January) will bring our awareness to that in our lives which is ready for release or transformation. Pluto powers our inner work, and as unconscious conditions surface they enable us to examine our own chthonic depths. There exists a seed of potential to re-emerge more powerful, wise and whole than ever before. With loving kindness, compassion, willingness and patience this time will nurture our evolution and facilitate profound healing on a personal and collective level.

 

 

To quote the wonderful Leunig again…

 

God give us strength

Strength to hold on

And strength to let go

Amen